Faith is challenged.Fact !!

As a christrian there is nothing to feel convicted or ashaimed about when your faith waivers or a conflict arizes in your beliefs. The so called rational mind has a hard time grasping on to what it can not get solid proof of or something it cannot openly see or hold.
In my case I have said over and over again that I will be content that God 's Will, will be done and whatever this end result may be , to take me home or let me stay, will be for the greater good and I will faithfully accept it . But for the time he does grant me here,  (be it 2 months  or 50 years ) My children will see my love for  JESUS CHRIST,  unwaivering for whatever that time left is.

Mark 9:24
When a man approached Jesus to heal his son  and was asked if he believed . His reply was " I do believe. But help me in my disbelief.." Jesus saw great faith in this man.
Lapses in our faith is not only common but I believe expected.
Jesus acknowledges this.
A rational mind must at least question the unseen. Jesus  did not tell the people of his gifts he showed them. Faith is a tough journey with many final destinations. His only comand to us to be unwaivering in the facts that we love Him, he loves us and we accept Him for who he is "His Fathers Son."
The diverse paths that we move on to through life after that will be filled many Questions leading us to wind up on our own individual paths some similar some very different .
I recently  was given news that my cancer had moved to my brain , not the end but far from good news.. When I was able to get more clarification the neurosurgeon used the description  very very very small when describing the tumor within my brain. Those words placed a smile on my face from ear to ear. I was not thinking I was going to survive because of the news. The smile was that there was news that I could have recieved that I didn't have much time left at all. That news would have been game over news as far as the clinical trial I was counting on and have already been accepted in. The smile was for the news for which I did not get.
I choose to be happy with the life I have left. This is what I will try to have my Wife and children witness till my last day.
Challenges to one's faith will happen throughout one's lifetime and is especially inevitable during times of extreme  adversity. At these times call to Our God the Loudest. He will answere.

This is a Re-edit , Republish.
Friendly Advice. Don't  Blog Heavily Medicated from Hospital Room.

Somedays are not guaranteed .

Having your "Somedays" stollen from you.

I have already posted these thoughts on facebook but decided to repost it on my blog. This issue is definetly worth readdressing.

In my original diagnosis,  I was told the grim prospect of the rare and aggressive cancer that decided to make itself part of my life. The most recent bit of news was that the cancer had metastasized into my brain which as far as that goes is probably one of the worst things you could here. I was again reminded of the fact that the the concept of "Someday" had lost most of its value to me.

Don't get me wrong. I never gave up, and never will.The last year has been a roller coaster ride of highs and lows filled with promising prospects and disappointments . At hearing this last bit of news the thought had again struck me as to how many someday propositions I had scheduled in my life, and how they had probably lost there chance of realization. 

Some are ones I have no choice but to wait for. Watching my children turn into the awsome Man and Woman I know they will become, seeing the amazing things I know they are going to accomplish. Graduating college and hopefully finding the job of there dreams. Finding the Wife or Husband they will decides to share the rest of their lives with. All these "Somedays" are out of my control.

The "Somedays" that bother me though, are the ones that I thought I had all the time in the world to get to. Little things like making my garage into a wood shop for me and my Son. And not so little things like making sure all the people in my life; friends, family, and all the loved ones that God was gracious enough to place in my life; "KNOW" I love them.

There is always going to be things of the physical world that are just not going to get done  but unfinished business of the soul can damage generations. There are some things that only you can fix. Once your not around , they will be destined never to be fixed. They will continue to cause pain to those left behind.

Life is not infinite. That became all to clear to me now that the concept of "Someday" has been challeged in my life.I challenge all of you to take inventory of all your "Somedays" and get on the job of turning the Important ones into "Todays".

A man who leaves this world knowing he is loved while leaving all the people  in his life knowing that he loved them has had a successful life.

Just a Thought .

Painting a better picture of the world.

 It is my belief that one of the most impacting statements one person can make to another in the history of communication is I love You.

It has to be verbalized. People need to here it . Those who are uncomfortable with hearing it and even more uncomfortable with responding after being told it should at least muster  up the strenght to responding with a thank you , instead of the inevitable awkward moment of silence.

Love is out there . It should get all the advertisement that hate, selfishness,  and greed get. A day shouldn't go by that proof of it's existence isn't seen or heard of because of widespread acts of love and kindness . Lord knows we are constantly bombarded with reminders of all the negativity in the world.

What people see everyday  will become part of the reality of what they believe there world consists of . Everyone knows what's in there own hearts but whats in the hearts of others has to be seen and heard.

Show the love I know is in those beautiful hearts of yours .
When meeting your friends out, surprise them with a big strong hug and tell them how much you missed them.
When you part your ways squeeze an I love you in there. End your phone calls with the ones you love with actually telling them those very word's.

You may feel alone at first but you can trust me that if you stay Vigilant , it wont be long until your seeing it catch on and the hugs and (" I Love you ") 's  will be flying around everywhere .

Just as a clarification of what I"m advocating the spread of, I'd like to share my favorite definition of love.

Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I could be wrong but I find it hard to fathom of anyone having a problem with a world more focused on that.

This is just my rant of the Day.

More to come.